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I got in to the school I [i:bce5rrwv]really[/i:bce5rrwv] wanted to go to in Stockholm. They absolutely loved me at the interview, and said right away that they wanted me to go there. I have to accept or decline in one month. The thing is, this summer, it all got so complicated.

About a boy? No. Maybe a little. But as you might know, I was just on vacation in Croatia recently. I have been to that same place 4 times before, and I know everyone there. It's a small town by the sea. I fall in love every time I am there. Not in a person, but in the town, the way of life and the culture. I always wanted to move there to learn the laguage and stuff, but I never really had the chance to, because of school and shit like that. I wasn't there last summer, so I kinda "forgot" the feeling I get when I'm there. But that feeling, oh man... I'm in harmony, in balance, life is perfect. I love it. And it doesn't make it any easier that I met someone there this summer...

So, I applied to the school in Stockholm, a really cool film school, and I worked really hard to get in. I got in. But now, I don't kow what to do. If feels like if I am going to take my chance in Croatia, I have to do it now. And I really want to. But is it worth it? I'm almost 21 years old, and I can practically do whatever I want.

But what do I want? I'm so confused....

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Here we go...

I got in to the school I [i:1dhnig9d]really[/i:1dhnig9d] wanted to go to in Stockholm. They absolutely loved me at the interview, and said right away that they wanted me to go there. I have to accept or decline in one month. The thing is, this summer, it all got so complicated.

About a boy? No. Maybe a little. But as you might know, I was just on vacation in Croatia recently. I have been to that same place 4 times before, and I know everyone there. It's a small town by the sea. I fall in love every time I am there. Not in a person, but in the town, the way of life and the culture. I always wanted to move there to learn the laguage and stuff, but I never really had the chance to, because of school and shit like that. I wasn't there last summer, so I kinda "forgot" the feeling I get when I'm there. But that feeling, oh man... I'm in harmony, in balance, life is perfect. I love it. And it doesn't make it any easier that I met someone there this summer...

So, I applied to the school in Stockholm, a really cool film school, and I worked really hard to get in. I got in. But now, I don't kow what to do. If feels like if I am going to take my chance in Croatia, I have to do it now. And I really want to. But is it worth it? I'm almost 21 years old, and I can practically do whatever I want.

But what do I want? I'm so confused....
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Think of it like this!

IF oyu go to college you'll have taken another step upwards and will gain usefull skills to use for the rest of your life. School is real fuckin important, and you can always go visit Croatia and he can prolly always come visit you right?

But if you go to Croatia you'll have thrown away all your hard work, and you and that guy may not even last very long, possibly.

Get the necesseties taken care of first, get through the shite first and then you'll be better off and you'll be able to do whatever oyu want afterwards.

I dropped out of school when I was around 10 years old, and I've got shit to show for it. School is important.

BUT don't listen to me! Because at the same time I believe in doing whatever the fuck you want to do. However if you think smartly then you'll probably want to get college out of the way and then go and pursue you're happy dreams.

nothing is more important than you and your life. not a place, not a boy. only you.
no one can help you make the "right" decision when it comes to something like this.

If I was you, truthfully I'd flip a coin. :3

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Think of it like this!

IF oyu go to college you'll have taken another step upwards and will gain usefull skills to use for the rest of your life. School is real fuckin important, and you can always go visit Croatia and he can prolly always come visit you right?

But if you go to Croatia you'll have thrown away all your hard work, and you and that guy may not even last very long, possibly.

Get the necesseties taken care of first, get through the shite first and then you'll be better off and you'll be able to do whatever oyu want afterwards.

I dropped out of school when I was around 10 years old, and I've got shit to show for it. School is important.

BUT don't listen to me! Because at the same time I believe in doing whatever the fuck you want to do. However if you think smartly then you'll probably want to get college out of the way and then go and pursue you're happy dreams.
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I know, but the thing is that I can always go to that school later. Yes I worked my ass off to get in, taking courses at the university and stuff, but I still have them. If I'm gonna apply to that school again, I don't have to do anything more than apply and hope that they will remember me, and like me as much. It's a risk, I know, but Croatia.... Aaaah, I don't know how to explain it.

I just need to do this. I can't go to that school. It's not what I'm burning for anymore. Not right now.

It's really not about the boy. I know that the summer is here, girls will come and go there, boys will come and go here, we will both have fun.

baaah, it's so stressing.... hard choice.

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I know, but the thing is that I can always go to that school later. Yes I worked my ass off to get in, taking courses at the university and stuff, but I still have them. If I'm gonna apply to that school again, I don't have to do anything more than apply and hope that they will remember me, and like me as much. It's a risk, I know, but Croatia.... Aaaah, I don't know how to explain it.

I just need to do this. I can't go to that school. It's not what I'm burning for anymore. Not right now.

It's really not about the boy. I know that the summer is here, girls will come and go there, boys will come and go here, we will both have fun.

baaah, it's so stressing.... hard choice.
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Do what you want to do then. Do what would make you happy.

I'm gonna think about it for a while... I've just been in Croatia and Stockholm, so now I'm gonna stay in Norway for a while and just think. Get it all on a distance. I think that will be good for me.. Thanks

personally, i would definitely go to college first. Croatia may be beautiful and everything, but it's not going anywhere.
maybe if you finish college first, you may even be able to move to Croatia and get a job there! two birds with one stone.
i hate to say this, but if you really want to make it somewhere you're gonna need some kind of degree.
don't underestimate the importance of education.

Funny you say that..on a bands message board..which was started by a high school dropout...who is featured in your avatar..

I'm going to go ahead and quote Billie Joe Armstrong.

"School is practice for the future, and practice makes perfect, and nobodies perfect, so why practice?"

But anyway, that sounds like a really hard decision to make, I guess you need to think hard about what you want out of life.

Haha, good point.

I still don't know what to do. If I choose Croatia, I'm still gonna go to school, just not now. In a few years maybe. I have the chance to follow my dream, you know?

It might sound kinda odd. But my i did the same thing, we moved away, thought it was beautiful, and the best thing ever, but when i got there, it wasn't half as good as it seemed. I Dont know, it might be different for you, i'd probably stay where you are for the time being, you can move to croatia any time you want. Like some people say, One desire leads to another one, and so on, once you move to croatia, think, will you get there and want something more, if you move there now, it could screw a few things up, move in a year/few years, and it could be 10 times better.

On the other hand, you have live for the moment, maybe if its what you truly want, it could work out for you.

Such a hard desicion really, i wouldn't wanna be in your shoes right now to be honest. Your only gonna know if you move there now, theres no other way to tell really. Theres no right or wrong, so no reason to get too worried about it i guess at the end of the day, just (although its cheesy) ''Follow your heart'' (Oh GOD that was bad), and you'll make the right desicion, only you know what you want...

Hehe, thank you... I know it might be worse than I think moving there, but I have always been that way, following my dreams. When I was 16 I wanted to move to California, and I did it, all by self. Then When I was 19 I wanted to move to Stockholm, and I just did it. I had the time of my life. I kinda want to do the same thing now, just follow my dream, set my mind to it and work my ass off to make it happen. The only problem is that I thought I knew what I wanted with that school.

I have to make up my mind soon. It is a s 50-50 as it possibly can be right now :/

Where did you move?

Well not really all that far, not like you i guess, was only about 2/3 hours away from where i am right now (It was still england and stuff), i moved with my mum, but my dad stayed, and i just wasn't very happy at all so i moved back with my dad
Not to say you won't find it brilliant, it sounds like you know what your doing, moving around all by yourself and stuff, thats really cool, if you found it fun the first few times, whats to say it won't be brilliant this time?

I know.. I just [i:24n6q52k]really[/i:24n6q52k] wanna do it.. just go for it. If it sucks, I can always move home. I'm gonna give it another week or so, but I have to decide soon. Every day I go to the beach to think at night. There are no people there, and it's really nice, white sand and huge waves. Gives me peace at mind. I just... don't wanna fall into depression again, you know? And if I make the wrong choice, I think I will. This is so important to me...

Man, what a hard desicion. I guess theres no way anyone can help you make this choice but yourself unfortunately. You have the rest of your life to do what you want So no matter what you do its the right desicion, because its your life, no-one elses, there just is no right or wrong to be honest.
Ps. I have no idea how to spell desicion. If its wrong, i apologise.

I made up my mind. Finally. If feels good now. At least better.

I'm gonna work my ass off here in Norway, save up about 100 000 kroners, which is about 15000 euros, and then I'm moving to Croatia. I have to do this now. If I don't go for it, I'm gonna regret it for the rest of my life.

Live it, mate.

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I made up my mind. Finally. If feels good now. At least better.

I'm gonna work my ass off here in Norway, save up about 100 000 kroners, which is about 15000 euros, and then I'm moving to Croatia. I have to do this now. If I don't go for it, I'm gonna regret it for the rest of my life.


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Awesome dahling Go for it!

Thanks! My parents were surprisingly supportive when I told them.. Ofcourse I got to sit through hours of "what about education, what about your dream, what about bla bla bla" but I think they are okay with it. This is what I want.

Exciting